“Have you ever loved someone so much
You’d give an arm for?
Not the expression,
No, literally give an arm for.
When they know they’re your heart,
And you know you were their armor.
And you will 
destroy anyone who would try to harm her.

But what happens when karma
Turns right around and bites
you?
And everything you stand for turns on you despites you?
What happens
when you become the main source of her pain?”

- Eminem.

I’m tired of knowing that I can’t make you happy.
I’m tired of knowing that I always make you sad.
I’m tired of knowing that I bring nothing but tears in your eyes.
I’m tired of knowing that I’ll feel hopeless over and over again.

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I tried mending my broken heart after so many times.
Tried picking up the pieces and leaving the pain behind.
I tried drying up my tears after a long cry in silence.
Tried telling myself that it’s merely another ‘bad mood’ moment.

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.

But now I’m scared and started to think.
Maybe all these were just my dreams.
Maybe it’s time for me to face this reality.
That now slowly, your heart is what I’m losing.
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.
I don’t want to admit the truth.
I know I’ll never be ready for that.
I only want to give you happiness,
For you I’d risk even my life.
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“I can’t make you love me… if you don’t.
You can’t make your heart feel… something it won’t.”
- Bonnie Raitt
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Why should I be in the ‘losing’ team all the time?
Isn’t that everyone deserves to ‘win’ even only at one particular time?